What is emotions? What makes you feel the way you are? Is it you life, mind, or people around you?

Have you ever had a thought that stayed in your head that really makes you think about what is really going on in your life. Where no matter what you do you lost or can't get rid of it. Well I'm there. I'm so confused. I think people just like playing with me just to see me freak, but I really can't blame them, can I?

I've been iching to do somthing but nothing I do saticfy it. I've tried writing, drawing, playing games, talking, and roleplaying, But nothing. I think I'm losing it again. I want to go places and meet new people but I feel like I'm chain down. Only to be trapped in one place forever.

I see the people I've been with and there laughing and having fun. Do they ever think about what they have done to me and how it has afected me? Do they even care about anyone but them selfs? I dought it. That's whats wrong with most of the people to day. They don't care what they do to others as long as they get something they want out of it.

I'm hurt and lost. I didn't think so much stuff could happen at once and distory me and everything around me. Well that's it for today.